So...today I am struggling. I have been crying pretty much all day. I am so tired. I want to lay down and give up the fight. I feel like a camel, who's had one straw too many loaded on, and is broken now. So many little things, all coalescing into hopelessness.
Aiyiyi...gotta go to work now. Only a few more days, then I will be off. School is over next Wednesday. Thankfully, I will be working 20 hours a week most of the summer, and collecting unemployment when I don't work. But since I am not making it NOW, I am definitely NOT going to make it this summer. I am going into it owing all kinds of money. Not a pretty sight...and neither am I, today. Red eyes, snotty nose, and sadness. Oh, dear. Well...I SAID this was going to be a reality blog. So here it is. To make it worse, my girl is not coming home until late tonight. I miss her, unlike many parents who breathe a sigh of relief to get time off. I would rather have her here. My sweet, sweet girl. SHE'S the reason I get up every morning. Right now she is in a white stretch limo, headed to a shopping mall, then out to dinner, with a bunch of girls. How's that for a 13th birthday party? I can't wait to hear all about it. :)
Sorry for the blahs...I don't usually have them...but I am just feeling a bit hopeless today.
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