Friday, June 19, 2009

Tough day I am struggling. I have been crying pretty much all day. I am so tired. I want to lay down and give up the fight. I feel like a camel, who's had one straw too many loaded on, and is broken now. So many little things, all coalescing into hopelessness.

Aiyiyi...gotta go to work now. Only a few more days, then I will be off. School is over next Wednesday. Thankfully, I will be working 20 hours a week most of the summer, and collecting unemployment when I don't work. But since I am not making it NOW, I am definitely NOT going to make it this summer. I am going into it owing all kinds of money. Not a pretty sight...and neither am I, today. Red eyes, snotty nose, and sadness. Oh, dear. Well...I SAID this was going to be a reality blog. So here it is. To make it worse, my girl is not coming home until late tonight. I miss her, unlike many parents who breathe a sigh of relief to get time off. I would rather have her here. My sweet, sweet girl. SHE'S the reason I get up every morning. Right now she is in a white stretch limo, headed to a shopping mall, then out to dinner, with a bunch of girls. How's that for a 13th birthday party? I can't wait to hear all about it. :)

Sorry for the blahs...I don't usually have them...but I am just feeling a bit hopeless today.


1 comment:

  1. Nancy,
    I have been praying for you off and on for days now. I am sorry that things have been so sad. I will email you separately soon, but really...I am praying for complete peace for you that only God can give. I pray for strength and grace. I pray for His loving arms to be wrapped around you. I pray for friendships (with skin on- bloggy friends are great, but we need some skin-on friends)that are encouraging, uplifting, rowdy and wild! I pray that God would give you hope..."For I know the plans I have for you - plans to prosper you and NOT to harm you, plans to give you HOPE and a FUTURE!"

    Much love! Linny xo